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My AdFly account got suspended a while back. I had used their website entry script on a couple of blogs and just let things be.

I've been engaged in an email exchange with their support desk, but I ended up talking to a wall. They accused me of committing "fraudulent activity" including sending traffic "via a bot". Their scripted responses made it difficult to determine what went wrong so that I can prevent the same thing from happening in the future. The more I tried to figure out what happened, the more scripted bullshit I got. I find it absurd that I can play by their rules and still get banned, but then I realised I was dealing with fraudsters. 

Part of their terms state that they will delete all information associated with my account in the event of an account termination. I emailed them to make sure that my information was indeed deleted, but they made it clear that they had not and would hold onto it indefinitely. They won't even play by their own rules. Oh, they'll pay out until it isn't convenient for them, but don't be fooled. AdFly is a fraud and a scam.

TL;DR: I set up AdFly, left it alone, and managed to get banned somehow.

Akihabara Expo Crashed and Burned



Updated 7 November 2015.

On 30 October, an individual named Michael "Mikey" Pham posted a tirade denouncing Akihabara (Akiba) Expo, a convention that was scheduled to be held at the Anaheim Marriott / Anaheim Convention Centre from 18-20 December 2015. In his tirade, Pham accused Akiba Expo's CEO of misappropriating convention funds for personal use, mishandling contracts, and failing to address copyright issues with cover songs. Pham did not post any primary sources supporting his accusations but the veracity of his allegations were ultimately irrelevant as guests of honour pulled out of the event, most notably Teddyloid.

Akiba Expo took another reputation hit when it was discovered that the festival rules for their Akibaland programme were copied almost verbatim from Electric Daisy Carnival's rules. The page has since been removed, but has been cached via Google. Presumably, the guidelines about totems would not have been applicable to Akibaland. The mention of TSA-style searches also raised concerns on social media.

On 2 November, the convention staff urged people to "please relax and wait for updated statement [sic] that will be updated later with a letter".

On 3 November, Akiba Expo was officially cancelled citing a lack of "proper staffing and a solid lineup". The remaining staff released an online form for issuing refunds. As of 6 November, Akiba Expo's PayPal has vanished.



In this official correspondence dated 11 June 2015, the public relations officer responding to inquiries about press/industry passes for Akiba Expo went by the name "Maikeru".


Mental Illness Vocabulary: The Overly Attached Psycho - Menhera vs. Yandere vs. Yangire

© Magica Quartet / Aniplex


Yandere and Yangire: Reviewing the Classic "Psycho" Archetypes

Yandere (ヤンデレ) and yangire (ヤンギレ) are archetypes referring to characters whose external cheerfulness, kindness, and innocence mask their internal mental instability. They appear normal on the outside, but are insane in the membrane. These characters often abandon their masks and succumb to madness as their stories progress. The prefix yan- in both terms is derived from the word yamu (病む) in reference to being in a state of mental illness. The suffix -dere in yandere comes from deredere (デレデレ), which has been appropriated in modern otaku culture as "being lovey dovey". The suffix -gire in yangire comes from kireru (切れる), "to snap suddenly and violently". The fundamental difference between the two archetypes is the source of their primary motivation. Yandere are driven to action by romantic attachment whereas yangire are driven by non-romantic motives such as caprice, jealousy, and irritation.

Gasai Yuno from Future Diary and Katsura Kotonoha from School Days are perhaps the most famous fictional yandere. Ryuuguu Rena from Higurashi no Naki Koro Ni and Tokisaki Kurumi from Date A Live are famous yangire, though Kurumi's obsession with Shidou qualifies her as a part-time yandere.

Menhera: An Operational Definition

Menhera (メンヘラ) is Internet slang derived from term menherā (メンヘラー), which itself is a derivation of "mental health-er", a nickname given to users of the 2channel mental health board (メンタルヘルス板). When it is used to refer to real human beings, menhera carries derogatory connotations. The English word closest in meaning to menhera is "psycho". Widespread adoption of the term has been impeded by its ambiguity and its negative connotations. 

Looking at the term's origin, menhera ostensibly refers to people who exhibit symptoms of mental instability. The term has been used as a stereotypical label for users of the 2ch mental health board in reference to people who display insecure romantic attachments. In this context, menhera could refer to those with yandere tendencies. It has also been used in reference to people who commit insane and often violent acts while keeping an icy demeanour (a state of disinhibition). In this context, menhera refers to violent psychopaths and yangire. MyNavi published an article that listed Ryuuguu Rena, Gasai Yuno, Miki Sayaka, Amane Misa, and Senjougahara Hitagi as prime examples of menhera characters. The ambiguity of the term has led to its usage as an umbrella term that encompasses the better known yandere and yangire, but menhera has been overshadowed by yandere in practice.

In many contexts, menhera has become almost synonymous with yandere. It can be used as a derogatory label for people with personality disorders who validate their sense of self by seeking romantic affection from others. Menhera and yandere are primarily motivated by romantic love, both want senpai to notice them, but menhera are more likely to harm themselves whereas yandere might be more inclined to harm their rivals. For menhera, this romantic love is directed more toward the self than toward a significant other. However, some yandere exhibit self-destructive behaviour (including threats of murder-suicide), so the term yandere has essentially eclipsed menhera as a general label for someone with a personality disorder whose actions are motivated by distorted love. 


To sum up the generalised differences between menhera, yandere, and yangire:

Menhera: "I'll kill myself/senpai if senpai doesn't notice me."

Yandere: "I'll kill anyone who gets between me and senpai."
Yangire: "I'll kill senpai if I feel like it."


Miki Sayaka: A Case Study

Warning: Puella Magi Madoka Magica spoilers ahead.

There is no such thing as a prototypical menhera, but the label could fit Miki Sayaka of Puella Magi Madoka Magica. Sayaka has major psychological and interpersonal issues, but she isn't usually considered a yandere (Hello, Homura!). She puts up a brave front to mask her inner insecurity. Sayaka's idealised view of romance and justice leads her down a path of crushed idealism, utter despair, and suicidal madness..

Upon forming a contract to become a magical girl, Sayaka presents herself as a selfless hero of love and justice. She strives to become a worthy successor to Mami, to become a hero who protects innocents from evil, and to win Kyousuke’s heart. Sayaka uses her one wish to cure Kyousuke’s ailment and insists on destroying familiars even though they don’t drop Grief Seeds. Her downfall begins when she learns that her wish came at the cost of becoming a lich bound to a soul gem. The revelation that she is no longer human warps Sayaka’s self image, but not her distorted ideals. She maintains a dichotomous view of morality (all-good vs. all-bad), rejecting Kyouko’s offering of a stolen apple along with Kyouko’s view that magical girls should fight for self-serving survival. Sayaka’s idealised romance begins to shatter when Hitomi announces that she will confess to Kyousuke. Sayaka later admits feeling a moment of regret for having previously saved Hitomi from a witch and realises that her “hero of justice” act has fallen apart. She convinces herself that she is unworthy of love and realises she cannot live up to expectations of an ideal hero. Even though she does not attempt to harm or kill her friend-turned-rival, Sayaka’s mental instability worsens in the absence of the mask that held her identity together. Her cognitive distortions become even more apparent when she switches off her sense of pain and goes berserk while attacking the witch Elsa Maria. She completely snaps after an encounter with a couple of male chauvinists on a train. Sayaka’s self-destructive spiral culminates not with death and rest, but with her transformation into the witch Oktavia von Seckendorff.

Sorry, Sayaka, your suffering doesn’t simply end when you stop cleansing your soul gem. You become a witch and then suffer some more (that is, until your universe gets rewritten by Madoka and then again by Homura).


Menhera (cont'd): Esoteric Overanalysis and Real World Comparisons

Nico Nico Pedia's page on menhera warns that the term is not recognised by medical professionals and could be used as a subjective label to describe (read: denigrate) people who have a different set of values from oneself or people who have a "unique" or "nonconformist" personality. It is prudent to remember that people should not automatically be viewed as patients/clients who require medical treatment simply because they have been assigned a label.

In the field of abnormal psychology, menhera is closely related to Axis II (Personality Disorders) of the DSM-IV-TR (Note: The DSM-5 has done away with the multi-axial system). Menhera exhibit symptoms that would suggest comorbidity for Cluster C (anxious/fearful) disorders such as dependent personality disorder and Cluster B (dramatic, emotional, or erratic) disorders such as borderline personality disorder, histrionic personality disorder, and narcissistic personality disorder. People diagnosed with personality disorders are often comorbid for other Axis II disorders (Tasman et al., 2008). Common characteristics exhibited by menhera include unstable interpersonal relationships, fear of abandonment, attention-seeking, issues with self identity, black-and-white thinking (also called splitting), lack of empathy, disinhibition, impulsive behaviour, and self-destructive behaviour. Someone labelled as being a menhera could meet the criteria for at least one of the personality disorders recognised by the DSM-IV-TR, DSM-5, or ICD-10, but diagnoses should only be performed by qualified medical professionals.

Developmental psychology and the science of interpersonal relationships can offer additional insights about menhera. The more narrow definition of menhera, characterised by the pursuit of romantic affection, shares characteristics exhibited by people with a preoccupied attachment style. Psychologists Kim Bartholomew and Leonard M. Horowitz presented a four-category model of adult attachment based on earlier work by pioneers in the development of attachment theory such as John Bowlby, Mary Ainsworth, Cindy Hazan, and Phillip Shaver. Under this model, people with preoccupied attachment styles harbour negative views of themselves, but positive views of valued others. They believe themselves to be unworthy or unlovable and construct their self-concept by seeking acceptance from others. In other words, they are “preoccupied” with their personal relationships (Bartholomew & Horowitz, 1991).

There is nothing close to an official set of criteria for identifying characters as being menhera. To reiterate, menhera is Internet slang and not scientific vocabulary. People and characters identified as such are not necessarily narcissists and do not necessarily have preoccupied attachment styles. It may be amusing to analyse fictional characters by diagnosing them with real (and very serious) psychological conditions, but is ultimately informed speculation at best. Despite social stigma against people with mental illnesses, the term yandere can be interpreted as a form of endearment depending on the speaker and the context whereas the term menhera almost always carries negative connotations. This peculiarity could be attributed to menhera‘s non-fictional origins and its status as a relatively unknown term. A quick scan of Pixiv submissions tagged as 「メンヘラ」 (Warning: possible NSFW user submissions) reveals only a handful of characters from recognisable series. In all likelihood, menhera will remain yandere‘s lesser known sibling, as it has not differentiated itself enough from yandere to warrant widespread adoption.



References


Bartholomew, K., Horowitz L.M., (1991). Attachment styles among young adults: a test of a four-category model. Journal of Personality and Social Psychology. 61(2):226-244. doi:10.1037/0022-3514.61.2.226

Tasman, A., Kay, J., Lieberman J.A., First, M.B., & Maj, M. (2008). Psychiatry, Third Edition. doi:10.1002/9780470515167 

Addendum

The word menhera is also used in the context of art and fashion. Menhera-kei refers to a fashion style that incorporates medical themed makeup and accessories. The style typically features eyepatches, copious amounts of blush, and gratuitous use of the colours "baby blue" and "baby pink". Refer to your favourite search engine for more information on menhera in this context.


Addendum II

Niiyama Niko (Nico) of Kiznaiver is labelled in-universe as being fushigi menhera (不思議メンヘラ). Aniplex/Crunchyroll's official translation renders this as "Eccentric Headcase", where menhera = headcase. 

Cognitive Distortions in Walled Gardens and Echo Chambers




After years of taking prerequisites for my major, I relished the idea of taking only electives in my senior year as an undergraduate. Just about all my classes dealt with topics related to mental health: abnormal psychology, criminal behaviour, relationship science, developmental psychology, and happiness and well-being. Lukianoff and Haidt's recent article in the Atlantic about mental health in education grabbed my attention with its list of cognitive disorders and its use of concepts from Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT). The article is about more than just political correctness, microaggressions, or trigger warnings, so I have been disappointed in how acquaintances have been quick to dismiss the article as a result in part of their established beliefs.

One acquaintance implied that Lukianoff and Haidt's arguments were invalid or flawed on the basis of the authors' race, gender, and social class. This ad hominem attack also implied that the authors were unlikely to ever become victims of sexual harassment, and thus their authority was somehow suspect. I wonder if the individual who made that statement ever actually read the article. Did this person even get past the headline? I realise that the title "How Trigger Warnings Are Hurting Mental Health on Campus" is provocative and "clickbait-y" (pardon the neologism), but that is an artefact of modern journalism. We have Hearst and Pulitzer to thank (with plenty of vitriol) for leaving this relic of manufactured rage and sensationalism in our media headlines. Recent articles about "sexist" air conditioning come to mind, but I digress. Please, look past the headline before forming an opinion about a written piece. "The Coddling of the American Mind" appears to be this article's proper title, but I can see how the alternative title would attract more attention. Controversy makes for more views which makes for more monies. It is a shame, but that is just what happens when you mix business and journalism. In any case, having an opinion after reading the headline is not the same as having an informed opinion after perusing an article and by "perusing" I do not mean "skimming".

So, if the Lukianoff and Haidt article is not just about trigger warnings, then what is it about? I have paraphrased the authors' ideas in an outline below, but in a nutshell the article is about how higher education has embraced cognitive distortions and fostered "bad" thinking styles. If you asked me to clarify what that meant, I would say that if you are unwilling to confront discomforting topics and issues, you will run into a plethora of problems once you leave the walled gardens and echo chambers that surround you.

True, the article is not comprehensive or even close to being "perfect". I would have liked to see the argument fleshed out more, but I realise that it is an article and not a book. The examples in the article felt cherry-picked at times and I had hoped to see scientific studies quantifying the effectiveness of CBT against words and ideas perceived as being traumatic or uncomfortable. Best of luck to those with grant proposals and kudos to researchers who manage to secure funding for studies dealing with mental health. That is an uphill battle, especially when money is involved.

All I have to add is that I now have second thoughts about becoming an educator. I already have trouble conveying my intent through words. I mean no harm, yet someone out there will take offence because our cognitions, experiences, and interpretations will differ even through we see and hear the same words. How would I go about policing my thoughts, words, and actions to make sure that no one could possibly be offended? How then would I discuss particularly touchy topics in a mature manner if students are unwilling to confront the topic? I suppose they could walk out of the classroom or even drop the class, but how would that help them grow as critical thinkers? 

Entering the profession of teaching might run contrary to my best interests.

Paraphrased Outline:


  • The current "political correctness" movement differs from the one in the 80s and 90s. The "old" movement focused on including diverse perspectives in addition to restricting hate speech whereas the current movement is "largely about emotional well-being."
  • Vindictive protectiveness has spawned a culture in which you must think twice before acting. This hinders critical thinking.
  • The current culture is the result of generational shifts, increased adult protection, political polarisation, the rise of social media, and more reported cases of emotional distress.
  • Psychotherapy, especially Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, minimises cognitive distortions and teaches critical thinking. Cognitive distortions and disorders have discouraged critical thinking
  • Emotional reasoning is when subjective feelings guide (and cloud) the truth. It has fostered a culture where you can use being offended as a weapon.
  • Fortune telling, seeing danger and distress in everyday situations, has led to the rise of trigger warnings. As a result, avoiding material that could possibly offend or trigger trauma has become a priority for some students and faculty. This culture of avoidance ultimately spreads because of social learning. Eventually, more people become unwilling to discuss serious, uncomfortable subjects.
  • Labeling microaggressions and magnifying the importance of perceived slights and insults has resulted in zero tolerance for things that could be perceived as being threatening or offensive in some way, especially jokes.
  • Negative filtering is part of what drives students to protest against and "disinvite" guest speakers. These students see someone they disagree with and ignore anything that could be perceived as being "good" in favour of highlighting the "bad" things about a person. By not even considering the views of someone they disagree with, these students will have fewer opportunities to encounter diverse perspectives.
  • Call to Action:
    • Redefine federal definition of harassment a "pattern of objectively offensive behaviour" rather than a single remark or incident
    • Discourage universities from restricting speech or using trigger warnings
    • Teach students "how to live in a world full of potential offences."
    • Use CBT to facilitate critical thinking, to be able to communicate with people who think differently from you
  • List of Common Cognitive Disorders via Leahy, Holland, and McGinn.

Oregairu Zoku Evolving Cups

I'm usually oblivious when it comes to subtle changes when it comes to evolving OP/ED animations, but the last ten seconds of the Oregairu Zoku OP keeps changing in ways that even I've started noticing differences.

In episode 5, the camera has zoomed out enough that we can see the benches behind Yukino and Yui.



Episodes 3 and 4

Episode 5
The room changes by the episode.

Episode 3

Episode 4

Episode 5
The cups at the end haven't changed yet, but the table itself has.

Episode 3 and 4 (red line added for comparison)

Episode 5 (red line added for comparison)
Speaking of cups (and the tea set), they've become a bit of a running gag much like how the number of stickers on the classroom plate keeps changing. On occasion, the camera will focus on the cup representing the person talking i.e. Hachiman in episode 1 and Saki in episode 5 (not pictured below).

Episode 1

Episode 3

Episode 4

Episode 5